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The Portal September 2006 A Nifty Little Newsletter about Psychic Stuff This Month's Features: Memorial to Merlyn Aura Vents Self Discipline? or Tyranny?

 Memorial To Merlyn

Here's a picture of our Merlyn lounging in some greenery.  I'd pulled the flowers out of the closet as I was looking for something else.  Just right for a cat nap.  He was definitely a character.  It's good to see the picture of him healthy and strong as that helps the memory of his last days fade.  He never lost his alertness.  Even though he didn't feel good at the end, it was hard to tell because he looked directly at people and allowed them to hold him and pet him.  He drank up the love that was offered to him and he poured love back.

A weeping cherry tree has been donated as a memorial to him.  We will plant that as soon as the weather cools off.  The same person donated a plaque in his honor as well.  People have told me that they wouldn't have attended church except we had cats and that meant we were different and because of that, they were willing to take a look.  Even folks that didn't particularly care for cats in general, appreciated Merlyn and the service that he offered. 

Merlyn knew just who needed love and attention and would go to them during services.  He knew just who needed a laugh and would do some crazy antics like getting in someone's purse to take a nap, or meow at someone during the guided meditation.  Often, when I saw clients, he would get in their lap when they were experiencing something sad or difficult.  (The rest of the time he would be outside by the fountain or up on his perch, so he knew and came running when he was needed.) 

During classes, he would lounge all over the Tarot cards or our handouts of the Tarot layouts.  Sometimes he'd go from person to person, one lap to the next either in services or in a class.  Merlyn didn't miss a healing session unless the recipient requested he be kept out.  Even then he'd meow and scratch at the door to be let in.  He would position himself right on the place that was needing attention and stay there until the session was completed or until we moved our focus on something else, and then he'd go there.  Often he would be on someone right where they were experiencing discomfort before we could even identify the issue.  

We may miss the little guy, but we will not forget him.  He showed himself  in the form of energy right after he passed away and then showed himself again within an hour with strong energy and as powerfully bright yellow light.  I haven't seen him since that time, yet I know he will be back for visits when the time is right.   Each day I remember more and more of him being healthy and full of life and each day, the grief lessens and lessens.  What a blessing that our lives were touched by such an open, honest, and powerful healing being.  Farewell, little friend.  We'll be seeing you!  

Aura Vents

During a recent reading, I was shown vents within the aura.  This is the first time I have seen these energetic constructs.  Christopher Turner, our monthly guest speaker at the Divine Fellowship mentioned to me recently that he, too, has experienced some new insights regarding the aura and how we can change it's appearance.  He indicated that he, too, had been "told" of the need to create filters for the aura.  I told him of my experiences and he expressed that we were on the same page.  I believe this is new information being given at this time because we humans are now ready for this information.  This information can come through anyone who is open and deeply connected.  Each person has the ability to get into this higher energetic state to receive information.  It is usually those of us who dedicate our time and energy to this sort of thing that receive the information first, just because we have the opportunity to focus more intently.  Christopher is receiving one aspect of the aura construct and I have been receiving another.

So what we getting is this.  Christopher has often spoken of thought-forms being held in our aura.  They look like cartoon character's word balloons.  A fleeting thought disipates quickly, while a repeated thought creates a thought-form like a thought cloud.  We can have positive thought-forms or negative thought-forms.  Christopher has been shown that we can replace old thought-forms with new thought forms or apply a new color to our thought-forms to enhance or augment their energy.  As we apply this energy to the thought-forms, it affects our aura - changing its color and its energy.  (This is the concept he's been receiving in basic terms.)

Similarly, I have seen new energetic constructs within the auric field.  They are vents.  They are located at strategic places in our energy field and extend from the body to the edge of the aura.  The vents situated at the lower levels of our body drain off negativity and the denser energy of resentment and rage.  The vents situated higher on the body drain of the energy of criticism and judgment.  The lowest vents are on the outsides of the ankles.  The vent tubes start somewhere within the body at the ankles and extend to the edge of the aura.  At the edge of the aura, the vents open up to the outside. 

To activate this energy vent, open up to the healing light of love and breathe it into your lungs.  As you take in a breath blow this energy out the vents as you exhale.  Breathe deeply three times with the clear intent of constructing, activating, clearing and opening the ankle vents.  You may have a sense of a color or a texture of this energetic construct. Iin a recent "Essential Spirituality" class that I teach once a month we activated these vents.  Some participants felt the vent was like a tube of energy.  Others felt as if it was crystaline in form.  Another felt that it was a cyclone of energy.  Your experience of this could be unique to you.  Just be aware of your experience of it. 

I must tell you that our bodies are already attempting to create these vents.  Without clear intent or clear direction, our energetic bodies are tearing open these vents anyway.  Our culture is on overload of negativity and judgment.  Since I've begun to discuss this with others recently, I've experienced several people who had pain in their bodies near where the vents are located.  Once we cleared the tears in the aura and installed working vents, the pain was gone. 

If your aura feels ragged or torn, your body may have already begun construction.  If you perceive your vent as being in some way bent or kinked, simply apply your intent for it to be clear and well formed.  If there is still some damaged areas, apply deep compassion to that place knowing that some things from the past may have not been vented cleanly or completely, but without any judgment of that.  A new way begins today. 

This process requires no special spiritual training.  If you can imagine it, so it is.  The word "Shaman" means "one who dreams for his people."  A Shaman can imagine specific things while in a higher state of consciousness and it brings rain to the land, or healing to a particular person.  So, too, we can imagine while in a state of clear intention and we can shift our reality, or effect our world.  Imagine the aura vents as healthy and well formed, and they appear so, or become so. 

Next, it is important to place a filter or a screen or a door of some sort at the edge of your aura where the vent touches the outside world.  This gives you the ability to choose when to vent and what to vent.  This gives us protection from others who may drain the positive energy through these same portals.  One gentleman in our recent Essential Spirituality class installed a check valve.  He's an engineer.  His wife installed a programable membrane that was calibrated to positive energy.  She's a programmer.  Whatever you can imagine is what will work for you.  Place that filter at the edge of your aura.  If you feel unsure or don't visualize easily, you can ask the angels to install and adjust this filter for you so that it is calibrated to what serves you best.  Know that you are able to do this yourself should you so choose.  Either way works.  Choose what serves you in feeling secure in this procedure.   

So, now you've installed the vent and filter at the ankles.  Next, move to the outside edge of the knees.  As you stand with your arms relaxed by your sides, follow your hands down your legs to your knees on the outside edge of the legs.  My knees were sore here before I installed this next vent.  So, again, imagine breathing in the living light of love - a sparkling white healing light or a golden living energy.  Exhale and blow out this energy out from the side of your leg out to the edge of your aura.  The vent will automatically be created.  This energy will not tear or damage the aura as it creates this passageway.  Once the passageway has been created with this first breath, the second breath further establishes the vent construct.  The third breath initializes the vent and removes any negativity stored in the body at that juncture.  Install the filter that prohibits back-wash.  (Ever have a child take a drink of your bottled soda pop or water?  There are floaties in the bottle afterwards.  EEEEWWW!  We don't want any psychic backwash!)

The next vent is at the hips.  Repeat the process as described above.  Be aware of any energy being released from your body.  Because negative energy can cause or intensify illness, this process will help you feel stronger and clearer.  Be aware of the construct of your vents.  Be aware of any colors that come to mind as you are doing this.  In class, the energy often came in clear, became muddy or cluttered as we blew out the vents and then became clear again.  If you require more that three breaths, take them.  You will intuitively know what is right for you.

The next vent is at the waist.  Breath to install and then add the filter.  The next vent is at the shoulders and the final vent is at the side of the head about two inches above the ears on either side.  I do a lot of pondering and these spots were very sore for me.  Once I was able to establish the vent and clear this area, it felt great afterwards.

One of our class participants had been experiencing a great deal of pain in her neck.  I could see that she had generated a tear on either side of her neck as a makeshift vent.  I walked her through the healing of the torn aura (imagine it closing, healing, and vanishing) and then she installed an extra vent near the site of the torn places in her aura on either side of her neck.  Once the energetic constructs of the vent were in place and the filters attached, the pain in her neck subsided.  It took a few minutes to clear this area for her, but the pain was gone with a few minutes of breathing energy through the vents.

I believe we are experiencing these things at this time for a reason.  I believe that we spiritual beings are being given the opportunity to get clearer and stay clearer in a world filled with disrespect and criticism.  We are being given the freedom to become authentic.  We can allow others to be who their are without having to fix them or change them or condemn them.  So, too, we can allow ourselves to be free of other's criticisms and well-meaning spiritual interference.  We are being given the opportunity to allow others their own consequences while still giving them in compassion. 

We are all connected.  When another feels pain, we experience it on an energetic level.  We may still have a sense of their pain - physically or emotionally, yet we no longer need to carry that pain.  We can recognize it for what it is (theirs) and let it go.  Our physical bodies now require these vents to eject judgments, criticisms, and negativity that other people project onto us.  We can blow off negativity any time we choose while protecting ourselves from energetic attachments that drain us of energy. 

Over the last few months, I have seen a huge influx of attachments of negative thought forms, entities, and friends that act as energetic vampires.  It is our right and our responsibility to protect ourselves the best way we can.  Generating energetic venting constructs is one way in which we can keep ourselves clear while still being involved fully in this experience we call life.  By installing filters we keep others from draining us of the energy that is our life force.  We can still share Divine Energy, yet our own righful energy is ours to keep intact.

Sometimes, others have issues that align with our issues and we inadvertantly download their stuff into our body and/or energy field.  Sometimes, we are around someone who is going through a really rough time and accumulate their energies by having compassion for them.  Sometimes, we work with someone who is disrespectful or critical and we receive those energies by being around them in an energetic form of osmosis.  Sometimes, we are caught off guard by an event or circumstance that trigger a vibrational reaction within us.  However we receive the unwanted, unusable energy, it is time to vent it.  Here are issues that may vent more easily out of certain areas than another.  Be sure to use your own intuition here.  If you feel it is important to blow out a sense of drudgery from your head vents rather than your ankle vents, then by all means do so.  These are just suggestions for you to consider.

From the ankles vent out issues like: being stuck, being immobilized, have a sense of drudgery or enslavement, lack of direction, or defiance. From the knees vent out issues like:  having too many choices, don't know which way to turn, inability to ask for help.  From the hips vent: obligations, expectations, lack of options, too much or too little information to make a clear decision.  From the waist vent: feeling unworthy, feeling hopeless and helpless, exhaustion, feeling overloaded, being humiliated or ridiculed, bitterness.  From the shoulders vent:  enmeshment (don't know the difference between me and you - my part and your part), issues of taking on other people's problems, being a giver and not allowing one's self to receive, being a taker and not allowing one's self to give, grief or sorrow.  From the head vent: worry, judgment, overthinking, unable to make a decision, people pleasing, criticism or disrespect, resentment.

Once clear, the world looks and feels different.  Like a clear, spring day after a light, gentle rain. 

If you have any questions or comments about this process, you may e-mail me at janice@janicelynch.com

Self Discipline or Tyranny?

We are urged to “give it our best” - “work hard” - “improve ourselves and our economic status” - “get in shape” - “push yourself harder” - "go for it!"  It is human nature to strive to succeed while we grow and learn. 

It takes a disciplined mind and body to exercise, eat right, take our vitamins, go to work, take time to play, learn something new every day, be of service.  It takes spiritual discipline to pray and meditate and tune in to the world around us.  It takes emotional discipline to to feel our feelings without abusing other people with them. 

It is a distortion of self discipline to force ourselves into striving for perfection.  Rather than exercising and eating right for our health, we can over exercise and severely restrict our diet to fit a particular percieved perfection - a process may bring us ill health.  Rather than learning something new, we can abandon our lives to the accumulation of information.  Rather than being of service, we give ourselves away in people pleasing and attempts to make people like us (or at least not hurt us.)  Rather than experiencing our feelings and moving through them, we may shut down and have no feelings at all.  We may end up striving to make our lives look like some perfect world without really living.  We believe our world would look a certain way and if we make it that way.  If we work hard enough, work long enough, or love enough, we can make things be the way we expect them to be. 

This is a rock and a hard place for those on a spiritual path.  We know our thoughts and actions change our world.  We know that we affect our world by our attitudes and practices.  Yet, how do we know when we carry that concept too far?  How far is far enough?  How do we know we've done enough?  How do we know when to do more?   

We’ve all heard about the inner child, the part of us that exhibits wide-eyed, child-like wonder.  This part of us prefers the balance that comes with self-discipline coupled with joyful living. 

However, we also have an inner brat.  A part of us that is centered in itself wanting what it wants when it wants it!  The inner brat doesn't care what's appropriate, what's for the highest and best good of all, it wants its world okay, NOW!  Balance goes out the window.  I want the house clean and by gosh, I'm going to clean it no matter what you're doing or what's going on.  I don't care if you have 4 pieces of your jigsaw puzzle left to go, it's getting cleaned up and outta here!  (Oh, Phil can only hope for an attack of that once in awhile!)   I want to buy this.  I don't care how much difficulty it's going to bring into my life, I want it and I want it NOW!  You get the idea.  The inner brat sneaks in and grabs control of the reigns of our life and there we go.  Later we may feel remorse, but at the time we are hell-bent-to-leather to have our way.

There is another aspect to our inner being.  We have an inner bully.  This inner bully steals the joy of life away from us.  Expecting us to perform perfectly, pushing us to exhaustion, it drives us to our limits and beyond.  The inner bully insists that we strive harder to win approval or for monetary gain.  If only he-she-we-it-they were better we would be happy.  This inner bully drives us to be smarter, better, richer, more informed, more involved, more perfect.  Unfortunately, there is no such thing as perfect. 

The inner bully is never satisfied.  Though, sometimes the inner bully finally wins.  The inner child gives up.  The excuses flow and we surrender to a feeling of helplessness.  Why try?  No one will notice.  No one will care.  No one will appreciate our efforts.  No one will help.  The inner child becomes the lost child or the invisible child, plugging along hoping no one will notice that they are slowly disappearing into thin air.

How do we know the difference between the inner bully and self discipline?  How do we know the difference between the perfectionism and striving for success?

When we focus on a specific outcome, we may be activating the inner bully.  Certainly, it is important for manifesting to have a goal and take action toward that goal.  For example, our goal might be to get a better job.  Self discipline calls us to take a look at our current job and look for additional training or education and put out our applications. 

An inner bully condemns us for being in a low-end job.  The inner bully taunts us with what could have been if only we weren't such losers.  The inner bully thwarts our efforts to move forward by locking us into feeling unworthy.  We are taunted for not taking any chances while bulling us into inaction.  This same inner bully may drive us to take our unhappiness out on others.  Does our inner bully expect others to fit into our concept of how it should be?  This same inner bully makes us work late at a dead end job when our time would be better spent learning something new.

What will work for us is balance.  What our inner child desires is balance, flourishes in a place of balance.  What our heart longs for is fulfillment.  Short circuit the bully by doing our best, while giving up the need for perfection.  Do the deal without fearing someone else’s disapproval.  What voice do we hear in our head?  If it's calling us a loser, chances are it's the inner bully.  Tell it to shut up!  The only way to overcome a bully is to face it head on.  Bullies are really cowards.  Our inner bully is simply a coward that doesn't want us to rock the boat or be fulfilled because we have to risk being hurt in order to do that.  Face that bully down! 

"You're a loser!" the bully says.  "Possibly so," you say.  "However, I'm going to do this anyway."
"Work late!  You need the money!" The bully tells us.  "Possibly so," you agree.  "However, if I take this on-line class, I can apply for a new position."
"The house is a mess!" The bully demands.  "Probably true," you reply.  "However, it would be good to take the dog for a walk and do that jigsaw puzzle with grandma right now."

We can either submit to the tyranny of the inner bully and miserably strive for perfection, or we can be intimated into giving up altogether.  Either way, the bully wins.  Sometimes the bully is strong and it feels impossible to overcome the pressure we allow it to put upon us.  At some point, we will either drop from exhaustion or ill health, or shut down due to the overwhelming sense of helplessness.  All the while we are pushing loved ones away and alienating co-workers.

In the alternative, we can do what we can -  using the talents and abilities we have  - with an attitude of service and a heart filled with joy.  It is a choice.  Sometimes just seeing the choice gives us the freedom we have been hoping for.  Sometimes we ask our Divine Source to bring us willingness.  Being willing to be willing to look at an issue can be a simple, yet powerful step. 

Who is the dominant force in my life?  The inner child?  The inner brat?  The inner bully?  Remember, the inner child thrives in an environment of self-discipline coupled with inner joy.  Face the cowardly bully down and reclaim the optimum life.  Oh, can you just imagine what a world free of that inner bully would be like?  If you can imagine a life free of the inner bully, take hold of clear self-discipline.  The life you desire will manifest itself far better than anything we can hope or imagine.